Some mums might feel it instantly, others might need more time.
I loved him from the very first second but it was more of an instinct. I felt like I need to protect him with everything I have and it’s something I will be doing for the rest of my life.
I read that women who had a traumatic labour have increased chances of developing post partum depression. I had a very tough labour but hopefully PPD is not a threat for me. However it has been a tough period but aftet 12 weeks the fog has started to clear out.
I can finally say that I’m falling in love with this amazing little creature.
The best are yet to come.
Having a child is a life changing event. You love this little creature with all your heart but especially in the first weeks it’s all about survival.
No one prepared me for that. Maybe not all women experience what I have but from what I have been reading online I definitely am not alone in this.
Luckily I don’t have post partum depression (or so I think, so far at least) but I do suffer from anxieties occasionally.
The best way to describe what I’m feeling is as if I have entered a different dimension. Are you a sci-fi TV series person? Have you watched Fringe? Remember when Olivia entered into a parallel dimension of her own reality? That’s exactly how I feel.
My son is 2 1/2 months old and he is the light of my life. But life so far is indeed exhausting.
I have been lucky having my mum visiting and staying with us for almost a month which has been a huge help.
I cannot point this out enough, if anyone is offering help, being your mum, your MIL, any relative or friend take it. Don’t feel any guilt. Your baby loves you and you need to rest and relax even if it’s for a sort period of time.
Now excuse me while I’m entering my alternative dimension.
My mum has come to visit us to meet her grandson. I was nervous before she arrived because I know she can be too much sometimes. She always means well but she can be too hyper and overwhelming at times so I was unsure how it would be with her around here.
Well, I’m relieved and happy to say that she has been a great help and I actually feel relaxed and rested. So much that we decided to keep here for two more weeks. She was supposed to fly back this coming Saturday but we surprised her with a new ticket. She gets to spend Christmas with us and also to meet my boyfriend’s family. I hope we won’t regret it, hehe, but something tells me we won’t.
The thing is that she adapts to our pace when she is here. My boyfriend and I are very calm and the environment here in Sweden is very quiet and relaxing which apparently it affects her as well.
Fingers crossed that it will stay that way.