As I was hoping that my horrible neck ache that started last Thursday was fading away, it decided to greet me again this morning.
Great! Yet another day of half my upper body immobilised.
And my son, for some reason that I haven’t discovered yet (boredom maybe), is very fussy and he is crying which is not like him at all. Well, unless it’s food time but that’s expected.
Hubby is amazing with him and he jumps right into his parental duties when he is home … but right now he is not.
It’s the first time in 5 months that I’m feeling like I’m reaching my limits. And it’s not because of my adorable little boy. It’s my damn neck and shoulder. Cause if I was fine I would have taken him outside and he would be a calmer, happier and content.
Umph… Tomorrow maybe.
SHIT. What a week.
Monday started ok. Monday evening I started sneezing like a mofo. I was thinking to myself wtf, is it allergy season already (yeah, right this is Sweden and it’s snowing outside so no).
Tuesday I got signs of a light cold. NICE. Not.
Wednesday I was sick with a cold. Ok not anything serious and not fever luckily but enough to piss me off.
Thursday I wake up and I can’t move. Shit shit. My neck and my right shoulder hurt so much that I can’t even breath. How am I going to lift my baby and take care of him? “Nice sleeping position you idiot” I think to myself. I go and take a hot shower hoping it will soften up my stiff muscles. It helped a bit but not enough. I was almost crying. I said hubby to come home cause I’m dying. He did. Ok great so now at least my son will be taken care of while I die slowly from pain.
Friday it was vaccines day. Poor boy got a fever. We knew it was a possibility so we were prepared. My neck was stiff and I was in pain but LUCKILY weeks ago I had booked a massage appointment. What a fucking nice coincidence and a nice break I got.
I didn’t die and no one really suffered but me. My son is fine and is always been taken care of but I realised that no, not anymore, I do not have the luxury to getting sick or getting immobilized for whatever reason. And it’s not like before the baby that even if I was sick I could crawl in under the blankets and wait until it passes. No. I hate being incapable of moving or taking care my son. It just sucks.
My friends said “Welcome to motherhood” (or parenthood for that matter)
This is my first party. It’s a birthday party of two of my friends and my boyfriend is going to take care of our son while I’m there.
No he is not going to babysit. He is a dad. He is going to take care of him like every mum or parent is doing.
It might be a bit silly to try and be politically correct about it, but then again it’s not. And there is no doubt that mums are very important for the first year of a baby’s life (of course for their entire life as well) but it’s ok for a dad to let mum have a night out sometimes. So dads do not babysit. Do mums babysit? No. So, neither do dads. Period.
Of course I’m not going to get wasted or anything. I feel already hangover and I’ve been feeling that since the birth of my son. That is almost 5 months ago. Funny how sleep deprivation, exhaustion and heavy drinking feel the same.
Even the thought of drinking one sip of wine makes me wanna throw up already. But maybe beer is fine I guess.
Well, ok, I’ll let you know how it went tomorrow.
Have a great Saturday mums around the world and enjoy your wine 🙂 You deserve it!
Sleep is a precious thing and once we become parents it becomes a thing of the past.
The first weeks with a new born are – to put it mildly – hectic. You get your survival mode on and you just exist.
Yes you should try and sleep as much as possible and if you manage to sleep when baby sleeps then congrats! I honestly believe you are part of the minority here.
I know that everyone who says that means well. But let’s be realistic here so please don’t mention the word sleep or do not try to offer sleep advice to a sleep deprived parent unless you want to be slapped right in the face. I love you all but please stop 🙂
Here’s why it’s an unrealistic advice:
- When baby sleep it’s the best time for you to go the toilet and be kind to your kidneys for the a change.
- When baby sleeps it’s the best time to eat something. I had no idea that I would be holding my baby almost 24/7. I was so naive to think that a baby will stay calm and relaxed once you put it in its bassinet. Oh stupid ignorant me.
- When baby sleeps it’s the best time to do some dishes. I know I know, cleaning the house it’s not a priority during this time but come on. I need at least one plate and one glass to survive.
- When baby sleeps it’s the best time to browse the internet. You know do something just for you. Or just watch TV, or read a magazine or newspaper. Or just stare the the ceiling because you fucking want to.
But then again that magic moment comes where you DO fall asleep when baby is sleeping and you manage to get some rest. Oh sweet sleep I missed you so much. But in my experience sleep when baby sleeps is the exception of the rule. It’s the only time I get to go to the toilet for n.2 (TMI I know sorry).
So please give us a break. Yes we are not stupid. We know we should take advantage of any break we have but sometimes it’s just not possible.
Oh sweet Nespresso machine, how much I love you.